I came too far , yet too Close to YOU !!!!

Every night I keep fighting with myself ,
In a quest to think nothing about you ...
then how do you become my first thought every morning ??


I pretend not to see you when you pass by ,
I do ignore your voice , your existence nearby ...
But how do I stop you, from existing within me ??

I rush to tell you everything that happens, 
but then I hold my steps at your door .. 
and ask myself - Do I really have the right to come to you ??


I fail to think of the ways , you do use, to cope these days .. 
in vain , I just wish , silently pray ..
You don't ever have to live My Life , not even for a day !!


With all my efforts of living without you ...
I just lost Myself, while loosing you ...
In this quest of staying away , I came too far , yet too Close to YOU !!!!