भैया -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली !!!

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

थे साथ सभी रिश्ते - नाते ,

पर बिन तेरे , था मेरा घर खाली  ....

रह गई  मिठाई धरी हुई,

बस सजी हुई पूजा की थाली ...

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

ना  रॉ केट  आसमान में पहुंचे ,

ना बुलेट डराते थे मम्मी को ...

अनार ,  फुलझड़ी  की  रौशनी में ,

 दिख  जाती -   "आँखों की लाली"  ...

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

थे मिले सभी से हंस कर हम , ( गुरु दरबार में )

बिछडे  संगी , छूटे  साथी  .. ( gudiya di , deepak bhaiya , vishal , shubham , vaishali, vidushi , raja, BK Singh sir , Pushpa aunty )

यूँ तो हँसी - ठहाके बहुत हुए ,

पर नहीं सुनी --  " तेरी हँसी " और ना ही  --- "तेरी ताली " ..

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

तेरे हिस्से के भी दिए , माँ  निकाले  बैठी थी ,

जैसे तेरे आने की अब भी, एक आस जगाये रक्खी थी ..

फिर मायूसी से उसने , सब दिए जलाये एक एक कर के ,

हमको देकर बोली - " जा तू ही  उजियारा कर दे " ..

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

घर तो उजियारा कर दी मैं,

मन उसका न उजाला पाई थी  ...

दीवाली के "कजरौटे" से काजल की वो इक  धार,

जो माँ तेरी आँखों तक पहुंचा ना पाई थी  ...

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

पूजा बीती जैसे - तैसे , सब खाने को थे बैठे जब ...

बच गई थी पूडी  की  गोली, और कड़ाही में भी घी ..  ( हमेशा  तुम खूब सारी  पूड़ियाँ खाते थे ... याद है)

कुछ छीटे तेल के  पड़  गए थे , माँ के बाएँ हाथ पर,

शायद कुछ बूँदें " ममता के आंसू की " , जा मिली  थी कड़ाही के -- गरम तेल में ..

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

पापा भी सब देख रहे थे, पर बोलना उन्हें भी ना आया,

हमने बोला " घर से ज्यादा"  सँघ  " यारों का " तुमको भाया ...

तभी सिसक रज़ाई में ---  माँ बोली   :

" जाने मेरे बेटे ने आज क्या खाया " ...        ( thats all she was worried abt )

भैया  -- तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली   !!!

गर लिख पाती मेरे जैसा,

तो पंख लगा के उड़ आती,

तेरे पास लिए खाने  की  थाली,

और कहती, लेकर अश्रु , "मातृत्व - विकल"  आँखों से ...

" बेटा  ----  तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली "   !!!!

" तुम बिन कैसी दीवाली "   !!!!

waiting for sunrise

sheher me roshni ya kuhra ...

jane kyun hain ye  kuch bheegi kuch sooji hui si
shayd aaj fir aankhein teri raah dekhti rahi ...

neend toh waise bhi  inse kafoor ho chuki hai
teri ek jhalak k liye ye seher (dawn) tak jaagti rahin..


karti rahin apni badnaseebi ka gila ..
ki dur tak falak pe tera nishan bhi nahi mila ..

jab jaaag chuke the parinde baste the jo ghosle me paas
laut aain ye khud ko dila kar fir wohi  aaas..

"tum aae hoge" ..

par shayad iss sheher me roshni bahot thi..
ya aaj   --  kuhra kafi ghana chaya tha ..




Occasion : Nothing spcl .. jst waited too long 2 see sunrise. Both on the day and in my Life.
These foggy winter mornings -- coldn't get a glimpse of sunrise till 5:30 in the morning ..phewww ...

waiting for sunrise

sheher me roshni ya kuhra ...

jane kyun hain ye  kuch bheegi kuch sooji hui si
shayd aaj fir aankhein teri raah dekhti rahi ...

neend toh waise bhi  inse kafoor ho chuki hai
teri ek jhalak k liye ye seher (dawn) tak jaagti rahin..


karti rahin apni badnaseebi ka gila ..
ki dur tak falak pe tera nishan bhi nahi mila ..

jab jaaag chuke the parinde baste the jo ghosle me paas
laut aain ye khud ko dila kar fir wohi  aaas..

"tum aae hoge" ..

par shayad iss sheher me roshni bahot thi..
ya aaj   --  kuhra kafi ghana chaya tha ..




Occasion : Nothing spcl .. jst waited too long 2 see sunrise. Both on the day and in my Life.
These foggy winter mornings -- coldn't get a glimpse of sunrise till 5:30 in the morning ..phewww ...

defining self

defining_self

I'm me myself , not more no less...



I'm calm just like the eternal bliss..
n furiated like a chaotic mess..
craving for myth - perfectness...


I am me myself .. not more ... no   less...


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I'm as fresh as the air around..
dusty as the filthy ground ..
noisy seems to be my heart's sound ..
sometimes lost in the vale profound ...


I am me myself ... not more .... no less....


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I'm stagnant, yet moving ...
u wud have seen me  happy n may be moaning
sometimes a winner but also loosing
all nerves, every tissue still craving ...



But,


I'm me myself........


not more .....


no less ..



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for Alok and Suman

Life hasnt changed mch !!!

 

its good 2 find some tym to feel some cute moments
in admist of the fast n brainy lyf..

its good 2 sit with old frnz on a rainy sunday evening
and realise we have still plenty of topics 2 talk on..
...
its good 2 walk on a drizzling nyt along a noisy bsy road
evn thn find dat sumone z listening every word of u..

its good 2 know dat life has travelled so far
bt still few things have not changed much :)

happy new year !!

lets enter into this new year,
which is so very novice,so fresh and very dear..
new paths to explore..
some more miles to cover..
...
new stories of glory 2 b written..
some more records 2 b beaten..
with lots of love, care and happiness ..
c'mon frnz .. lets create another history of 2gethernes.. :):)
WISH U ALL A VERY HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR ...See More


DEDICATED TO MY DEAR FRIENDS ..
kuch khwaab adhooore se..
kuch manzilein unchuuui si..
pagchinhh (footprints) pyaari yadon ke..
... kuch batein ankahii si..
apnon ka wahi sath , wahi ashirwaad
yarron ki yaari, masti aur pyaar..
sangh lekar karte hain aagaaz is nae varsh ka..
aur karte hain shilaanyaaas , geevan ki ek nai kadi (episode) ka..

kuch hawa hi aesi chali

how cudnt prevent ma accident from happening :(

                                              
praat kashti samundar me humne  utari, 
thi leheron se apni badi purani yaari..   

din bhi chadhta raha, aur leheron pe hum     
chu k ab lena tha, falak ko hi dum..


hum bhi rukte toh kaise, 
kuch hawa hi aesi chali...     




                 shaanjh ab dhal chuki lautne wale the ..
                 bus uski waqt ek bhanwar si uthi..      
                 bhanwar paar jab na rasta dikha,
                  yaad fir apni zamein aa gai..




apni si leher baaagi ho chali..




par hum ab rukte b toh kaise
kuch hawa hi aesi chali.. :O

There comes a limit to endurance just that the hope that this would be over soon gives us the strength. but if the same test is repeated over and again ... bura 2 lagta hai na !!


aa jate hain tufaaaan kabi vadi-e-aman me bhi
ae khuda tu mere sabra ka imtehaaan ab na le ....

yeh Rishta -- ek jirah !!!

though unwillingly , we come across certain situations in life where we have to quesn the insticts of our relations with our loved ones ! !
Believe  me thats the testing time 4 any relation . Here is a query being put in front of a man and the Almighty ...







tu kabi 2 khushiyan do charrr baksh deta hai
badle me fir gum bhi toh hazaar deta hai

hothon k dareechon par muskaan abhi khatam b na hui thi
k palkon k koron pe ansooon ki bundein saja di tumne ..
...
sapne dikhata hai bade rangeen kuch khushrang k b
isse pehle unhein poora kar paun neend se hi jaga deta hai

kehta hai mujhe "mera banda hai tu"
aur shikayat karne ka haq b nai deta hai ... :'(

ye kaisa rishta hai apna khuda
ye kaisaa insaaf hai tera ... :'(

I love you --- my POEMS !!!

You were with me when no one else was ...

when i was too happy to show it
all smiles, sparking eyes and no words
in the air,with high spirits full of joys
just felt the eternal bliss all around.


You were there with me when no one else was !

The times when fear took all over me
when unexpressed grief was killing me inside
when every nerve ached with the pain that ruled
and light was frightening with darkness all around

You were there with me when no one else was !

when there was a void -- a deep dark hole
with shatterred confidence -- my lost self
no endeavour , no way and I dared no goal
when there was emptiness quite profound - all around.

I Love You --- my POEMS, for You were there with me when no one else was !

Now when I have come a long way
changed in deep ways , learned , grew up
when i have started living every moment each day
cherished this GIFT of LIFE and thankful to be alive.

I owe a big thanks to you -- my poems
for You were there with me when no one else was !!!!
:) :)







 

kissa mohabbat ka

bahot vaade kai sajde yun hi kaafuur hote hain ,
ab kya kahun kaise iss  "waqt ke takazey" pe...
unhi   baaaton  -  unhi khwabon ko poora kar dikhana hai !!!

beshak mile hai mod anchahe kai , raste pe jeevan ke..
unhein bhi paaar kar k,  bus yun hi, bebaaaak chalne se ..
manzil woh "sunehri zindagi ki"  ab toh paana  hai !!!

 kayi waade nibhaye hain, "dusron" ki khushi ke liye ,
aaya haiii ab ja k,  achanak yaad ye humko ..
wada ab wahi  pyara humein , "khud se bhi" nibhana hai  !!!


ki yun to jeete hain dil hazaron humne , yun hi raaah chalte huye ,
kisi par haar k ye badgumaan sa yaaar dil apna ,
koi "KISSA MOHABBAT KA " ," fazal"  ab to banana hai  !!!



:D :D :D



MEANING:

1) paragraph : plenty of promises are left undone just  becox of time n circumstances.. Need tocomplete/ proove those promises....


2) paragraph :some unfortunate moments led to misleading of path .. Need to rework 2wards the DREAMS of Life ...


3) Have lived a lot 4 others , kept promises for making others happy . Same promise have 2 b kept 4 myself too .. Make myself happy :D


4) Paragraph :  quite clear !!!!

badley yahan hain khud KHUDAA...

pal pal ulajhti ZINDAGI ki Tez iss raftaaar mein ,
fursat mili jo yun hi , KHUD KO toh lun nihaar main ..
mehangii hui TANHAII bhi iss bheed mein sansaar mein,
ghadi bhar ko toh ye ghadi, sangh APNE lun guzaar main !! 

tanhaaa hai kaun hai saaath kya ,
kya  jeet hai , kyun haaarta ...
hai bus samundar - sangh mein hawa ,
isse keh lo LEHER , TOOFAAAN ya ...

dulehen subeh ki khud sajaye, shaaam ki veeraniyan  ..
ITIHAAS kya Bhavishya kya , sab badlaaav ki khaniyan ..
Badley yahan hain KHUD KHUDAA !!!
BANDA hai kaun KAAFIR hai  kya  ....

loneliness_emptiness : tum bhi toh nahi they

aaj aasmaaan meein thode baaadal the ,
raat ghani thi par kuch taare the..

kaam se khali hokar jab main chajjje pe aai ..
sard hawa ne mere galon ko chuu kar meri julfein udaaain.

uppar dekha toh asmaan me chaand nahi tha..
arey han ! tum bhi to mere paaas nahi the ........

tab tere na hone ka ehsaaas hua !!!!

हमसे कहते हो कि " हम " बदल गए ???

हैं  फासले  जो दरमियाँ --  अहतियात  तुम कराते हो ,
"जिरह" पास है कितनी  -- एहसास तुम   कराते  हो ...
बाद तुम्हारे, इंतजामात- ज़िन्दगी करने की, सलाह हमें दे कर

हमसे कहते हो  कि  " हम " बदल  गए  ???



बयां जो हम कर पाए , तुम न अब समझते हो ...
लफ़्ज़ों के  बिना आँखों की जुबान की अनदेखी   कर ,
हमें यूँ चुप देख बोले - " कुछ कहते क्यूँ नहीं "

और हमसे कहते हो कि  " हम " बदल गए  ???



जो अब तक मन भी  इक- दूसरे  का भांप लेते  थे ,
बंद किवाड़ों की अनसुनी दस्तक हो गए !!!
हम हुक्म के  इंतज़ार में थे और  तुमने  नाफ़रमानी का इलज़ाम भी दे दिया ,

और हमसे कहते हो  कि  " हम " बदल गए  ???



एक सुहानी सफ़र के यादगार रहे , मेरे हमराह , तुम
इस दोराहे पर हमें  खुद से दूर कर के ,  तमाम  तनहाईयाँ  बक्ष  कर ,
हमसे कहते हो   खुश  रहना सीखो !!!

और  फिर हमसे कहते हो  कि  " हम "  बदल गए ??? 





Not very clear actually who has changed !!!  :(